No Greater God
Last night, I found myself sleeping really early. I had planned on waking up early in the morning to do devotion and go running afterwards. Now, if you know me, you’d know how much I’m not a morning person, and for me to do something like that requires great discipline. And also, a miracle.
To make this short, I wasn’t able to wake up early because I wasn’t able to get some sleep. My insomniac self laid awake all night, tossing and turning. My mind was restless and reeling, thinking about the work I still needed to finish; worrying about my future plans; and the list just went on. Even when I went to my parents’ room which was more comfortable and darker, I wasn’t still able to sleep one bit. So I gave up and just decided to let the morning win.
There was an article I read in Thought Catalog where the writer wrote:
One of the most liberating discoveries I ever had was that thinking has an insidious snowball effect. Thoughts trigger other thoughts, and if your initial thought carries even a hint of insecurity or worry, subsequent thoughts can explore it and magnify it until you’re profoundly agitated. You can end up pulling your hair out and dreading the rest of your life, just from idle thinking.
Obviously, that’s what had happened to me last night.
And as much as I want to say “I’m only human”, you and I both know that that’s not good enough reason.
During my devotion today, I came upon Matthew 6: 25-34 where it says:
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, “What shall we eat?” or “What shall we drink?” or “What shall we wear?” For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.”Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
That felt like a slap right across my face.
Because not long ago I told God: Your will be done. But there I was just last night, having all these worries -having little faith in Him.
And yet, here He was, telling me not to worry; comforting me through His words that everything will be okay. How great is our God -tell me!
So my prayer for today is this:
God, thank You
for comforting me
and reminding me
through Your Word
Not to doubt Your plans
Not to worry about tomorrow, but
to seek You first.